Today I leave my comfortable daily routine to begin my second year of the training that may eventually lead to ordination. It is a challenging 10 day program. It is so challenging that I am nervous about not being able to measure up to the high standard expected.
Repeatedly I find that Buddhism brings you to a point where you are called upon to take a step into the unknown. While one may have confidence in the Dharma, when these moments arrive I nevertheless sense an element of risk. Engagement with that risk is the doorway to progress. Most of the time I handle these moments clumsily but I have learned that while I am muddling my way through I will have the compassionate aid of the members of the Sangha. So I take the step.